and i cried.. all over again..
i wonder if i can actually feel any punier and worse about myself....
Friday, May 30, 2008
Thursday, May 29, 2008
Monday, May 26, 2008
yes yes .. the word neglect has been hitting on me like a million times by a million creatures...
i admit.. i have been detached from the world out there.. what can i say? i was told that i've been too conusumed with myself. Really but is it true? How else do you expect me to be? the lifeless/heartless/zombified being ? with no social life? with no way in which i can have my laughter and joy? Wind the freaking time back .. remember how i used to be? for all the ways in which i tried to make do, i get this. I dont blame fate. I never did. But how am i supposed to function normally, minus all sources of joy i had. "Be yourself!"; "Soar!"; "Be strong" are the things you people tell me. How? The big bad world out there is not making it any condusive for me to be myself, soar or be strong. It reeks of self interest!! Every single effort is taken and it breaks effortlessly. My well of patience and determination drying out. How do i pick myself up? Is it wrong to move on? Is it wrong to live life according to my age? Is it wrong to seek joy?
It is so sad how you of all people would forget how tough a life you've imposed on me. Always being a source of intimidation upon my smiles and my drive to move on with life. In the name of the "love" you claim to have upon me, leave-me-alone. Stop draining the life out of me and my family. god.
The world has lost its rainbows and colourful flowers thanks to people like you.
i admit.. i have been detached from the world out there.. what can i say? i was told that i've been too conusumed with myself. Really but is it true? How else do you expect me to be? the lifeless/heartless/zombified being ? with no social life? with no way in which i can have my laughter and joy? Wind the freaking time back .. remember how i used to be? for all the ways in which i tried to make do, i get this. I dont blame fate. I never did. But how am i supposed to function normally, minus all sources of joy i had. "Be yourself!"; "Soar!"; "Be strong" are the things you people tell me. How? The big bad world out there is not making it any condusive for me to be myself, soar or be strong. It reeks of self interest!! Every single effort is taken and it breaks effortlessly. My well of patience and determination drying out. How do i pick myself up? Is it wrong to move on? Is it wrong to live life according to my age? Is it wrong to seek joy?
It is so sad how you of all people would forget how tough a life you've imposed on me. Always being a source of intimidation upon my smiles and my drive to move on with life. In the name of the "love" you claim to have upon me, leave-me-alone. Stop draining the life out of me and my family. god.
The world has lost its rainbows and colourful flowers thanks to people like you.
Bring me somewhwere... somewhere... where there's none of u...
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