RAGE ! VENGENCE! PAIN! SCREAM!! this is all thats running in my head!

Why is it that you ppl are so freaking consumed with wat you see; wat u think and wat u feel! Why is it that i must always take into consideration all about wat u all are...
when U! dont give a darn damn abt me!

Suddenly appear and disappear.. and expect me to cradle and adore u the same!
dont i have a hearT!?! if u've got those swings as to when u want to avoid me and when u need me..
lemme give u one fine advice! SAVE ME THE trouble! i have no time for your juvenile nonsense! trust me i am more than u think i am!

About the only two ppl in the world who know me in and out... understand almost everything abt wat i am gg thru.. i love u and i love u.. god's gift ! i hope to treasure all my life..

call me when in need.. when in need of a hearing ear! all u freaking do is complain about your life! then?! am i forgotten?!! every now and then u just pop up! does it occur to u that i have my own probS?! dont u trust me enough... dont u trust what i am to you!?! u think i go to that extend that i did for u for those bums?!! how can u compare yourself with them?!! i wonder... wat i am to u..

Why?! why must i lie?! i love you! but i cant be with you! u no why?! cos u plain simply F'ed up with my life! it'll be down right dumb to love u the same! i hate u and your family! AND how much u deny it... U ARE A SINKING SHIP! AND I DONT WISH TO SINK WITH U! period!

You both oni have feelings issit? why? do i look like plastic? does it occur to u that i am suffering way way much more than you both! I TRUSTED U GUYS!!! i'd DIE for u both! remember?!! you said u knew better! IS THIS WAT I GET?!! for entrusting my life .. upon your need to hold your head up high? huh? why ... why.. i'm never good enough right? i'm better off e dead cute gal than to be a walking failure in your life.. really! but i just dont have the guts!i no... u'd rather jump down then to ... i'll nvr forget that.. i nvr will.. down to my grave!

i can nvr thank god enough... i wish i can express myself more to u.. but i know it'll hurt... or it might jsut disappoint u to see how disturbed i actually am.. i love u both alot... being you both makes me forget all the shit in my life.. i cannot feel any more secure with anyone else than i do with u guys...

you snivelling liar! U hypocrite! ya i no you care... u care cos its got to do with u! u're a bitch in my life! You think you've swept everything under the carpet... u think u can play punk between us.. u think u've got it all safe kept well undercover... here 's a news for u! NOT!!! i no u panic every time we meet... and i no why! ha! we've bbeen there done that... seen too much of your kind! let me warn u! play more punk... and your whole charade will flunk right b4 ur eyes!

You are one thing that makes me smile. wat wld i do w/o u...

You all think i sit and pity myself issit?!! think i am weak issit? think i am like any other gal?! I AM NOT! give me time! i'll show all u idiots wat i am made of. i have my loved ones.. i love them with all my heart... and with all due sincerity.. i no who all are there for me for real... who care w/o any ulterior motive... i no who u guys all are.. i also know those of u who think of me so lightly... and intend to punk ard with me. dont underestimate me.. with my face and my smiles! deep down i no i am sth special... and trust me.. i can sense if there sth not gd about you... i may not show it to u.. but i will be very aware of u. feigning ignorance is my strength.. but it all ends at a point.. beyond which i will have no reservation on how i will treat u! I dont care abt those who dont give a damn abt me.. i can forgive those who hurt me unknowingly... but i'll nvr forgive those whomi've ever trusted in any way and still can even in the teeniest bit intend to hurt me knowingly... dont think i dono who u all are.






Basically : just dont bitch with my life! COS I'VE HAD ENOUGH!!!!