and i cried.. all over again..

i wonder if i can actually feel any punier and worse about myself....

I'm so happy...

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After what seemed like a million years..

for a reason i nvr thought wld ever happen..

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that I could cry...

All thanks 2 u

yes yes .. the word neglect has been hitting on me like a million times by a million creatures...

i admit.. i have been detached from the world out there.. what can i say? i was told that i've been too conusumed with myself. Really but is it true? How else do you expect me to be? the lifeless/heartless/zombified being ? with no social life? with no way in which i can have my laughter and joy? Wind the freaking time back .. remember how i used to be? for all the ways in which i tried to make do, i get this. I dont blame fate. I never did. But how am i supposed to function normally, minus all sources of joy i had. "Be yourself!"; "Soar!"; "Be strong" are the things you people tell me. How? The big bad world out there is not making it any condusive for me to be myself, soar or be strong. It reeks of self interest!! Every single effort is taken and it breaks effortlessly. My well of patience and determination drying out. How do i pick myself up? Is it wrong to move on? Is it wrong to live life according to my age? Is it wrong to seek joy?

It is so sad how you of all people would forget how tough a life you've imposed on me. Always being a source of intimidation upon my smiles and my drive to move on with life. In the name of the "love" you claim to have upon me, leave-me-alone. Stop draining the life out of me and my family. god.

The world has lost its rainbows and colourful flowers thanks to people like you.

Bring me somewhwere... somewhere... where there's none of u...

Life's a bitch!

cos Men hav been Fuckin ard with her..

Over and Over again...

you all function the same ole way...

sickly sick creatures...

Why are we women stuck as such..

cursed... women are cursed...

Men wrote poems of how they suffered..

in the name of love..

there's no such written for men by women..

cos Women suffer in silence..

not for them..

but for love..

why is it always my fault?

my work

my school

my family

my friends

my love life

random ppl

everything

Everybody is so ready to point finger at me?

Did i expect too much?

i guess i did..

Then i shld do away with it...

haiz.. I've had enough...

I shld go on a hiatus..

right

about

now

today's thoughts...

1) the world functions on self interest. Everybody is downright selfish. Its actually natural. Pft!

2) I am walking on a very sharp blade today. May the lord be with me.

3) I'm so over u! thank god. and gd riddence.

4) Dont you think its time to get that fire up and bright ? the exams are nearing.

5) You can't be like this forever u no? move that bum and get the prjs moving faster than that snail pace will ya?

6) I'm glad its you now. I have more confidence in you than in her

7) There you go again. I feel used. yet i love u so..

8) I really need to change my job.

9) i feel fat all over again

10) the promise is broken.

I saw him today... that man.. bastard!

and my poor dad things he's a trusty pal of his...

if only he knew..

you! you! you .. oh and you! IN the BIN! yes!

damn .. how i wish!

anyhowzzz.... still good riddance and FUCK YOU!


ah....
I FEEL LIKE A MILLION DOLLARS!